I don't know

I don't know when it started.

From where, what happened.

One moment I was fine. 

I was standing up so high.

Then out of the blue, i'm on the floor.

Finding my way out.

It was halfway towards forever.

I took a detour. A 3 years long journey.

To find myself back at the start.

Same feelings, same guy. Years apart.

What should I do? Where do I start?

I am not supposed to make any plans. But here I am, figuring a way out.

As much as I wanna leave. As much as I want to walk away, I put my headset on, blasting away.

& there I am, back at the start.

Shoot, I'm in a hot mess.